Trust Yourself

Self trust. Self belief. Self recognition. What do these mean to you?

For the last few weeks I’ve been falling into deeper layers of understanding of what it means to trust myself, which coincidently [or not] is also directly associated with the belief of self and the recognition of self, how I see myself in the world as well as how I act in it.

While walking this path of self awareness and recognition, it is natural to find a new world within the world you ‘thought’ you knew. It is really quite exciting, it was for me at least, and I could not help but just want to fully submerge myself in it, like jumping into the pool on a hot summer day. It all just felt so very right and satisfying to my being.

So I jumped and filled myself with all I could find, read, learn, you name it! Just wanting to learn, uncover and embody all that was being gifted in this ever-changing present moment.

Yet, it was soon made clear by the higher aspects of me and the unseen forces guiding me along, that no matter how much I learned from outside sources, the journey was and always is within me.

You may have already read this in every other entry I’ve written. It cannot be said enough, that all answers are within, all we seek we carry within us, we really are all that we are looking for. Those outside experiences, they help in mirroring for us to remember. But still, it is within us.

Somehow this now brings me to self trust, self belief, self recognition.

Perhaps I’m not alone in being someone that has always had an easier time recognizing the strengths in others vs in myself. When all along, everything I admired within that other beautiful soul, was simply reflecting back what I already carry within me.

Regardless, it was not so very clear at first. It was as if the distance between who I could and wanted to be kept elongating as I walked towards it. As I allowed myself to compare and seek outside myself what I was longing to feel within.

And so, practicing all those teachings, consciously self aware of it, something needed to change. My struggle was (and always is) me vs me. It is my path. My journey. My doing. I needed to find the me, in clearer and deeper ways, if I was to claim all I am here to be.

So I withdrew from the noise for a time. Going within and listening. Being shown glimpses, given encouragement from the holy realms of light as to what and who I truly AM.

And that’s when I caught myself recognizing, that I was already it! I have always been it! It has always been there, but I wasn’t trusting myself, I wasn’t believing in myself, I wasn’t able to recognize my own greatness.

I had to come home to me. Me, whole and healed, and always complete.

Here I am writing these words to you, trying to fit into a few sentences the intensity of this experience and life initiation that taught me that it could all be dangling right there in front of my face, but if I don’t believe and trust myself, if I am not able to recognize myself, then it is likely to be as good as invisible.

This sharing isn’t for you to see or understand me, it feels quite vulnerable to share all this with you, but there is a greater force guiding these words with the encouragement for you to also self assess and ask yourself, how is my relationship with myself? How do I see myself? Do I trust myself and my choices? Do I recognize my own greatness?

Through this self inquiry, allow yourself to be shown the way by your soul essence that is forever guiding you. It is not about proving how much trust and self recognition we have in a boastful manner, rather, it is about recognizing grace, the grace that is and our part in it. You are grace. Moved by divinity and divinity itself. Are you able to see that you are all and all is you?

This life is such a gift that keeps on giving. Just when we thought we knew it all, made it, we are gifted the opportunity of further growth through this ever lasting evolution.

May all beings recognize the beauty and grace within them and all that is.

And so it is.