Reclaiming My Power

A story on reclaiming my power and recognizing my medicine, in order to walk and offer the world my light.

It wasn’t long ago when, like a big ton of bricks hitting me in the face, I realized I had been given away my power.

I had been walking the path of expansion for some time already, proud of the accomplishments and in the new ways I recognized myself to be. But yet, the need to search was constant. For a sign, for an experience, for guidance, for answers. I had awareness of needing to trust and surrender to the path in front of me, but hadn’t fully settled into the flow of trust, into the flow of life giving, into full acceptance. I was still eager to achieve more, know more, be more, all the more more more. So the search continued outward and I longed for the next clue someone else could offer me to confirm what my intuition was already telling me, in order to achieve a feeling of being right, of validation.

It wasn’t until I met a strong woman in her power, not needing mine [power] to validate herself, that I realized the loop I had gotten myself into.

How could I not have seen it before?

Perhaps it is a “right of passage”, as they say, something that just needs to take place to learn the lessons and implement the knowledge which later turns to wisdom. After all, all is always perfect and divine, just as it is.

This outward search for answers and validation had not only been giving away my power and sense of worth, but it had disrupted my ability to listen to myself within, to listen to my intuition.

Let it be known that no one ever took my power or feeling of worthiness away from me, but rather it was me that gave it away, by the choices I made along the way and that which I chose to overlook, and to put it simply…just because it was easier. Having someone give you guidance is much easier than having to sit down and commune with your own spirit for connection and clarity.

After this very important realization, my journey inward, in much deeper and meaningful ways, began. Slowly, as I listened to myself, quieted down the noise outside and within me, I was able to start claiming back what I had been giving away. I started to reclaim the energy that was mine, placing healthier boundaries and loving myself first. It isn’t much different than the teaching of one must love themselves first, so we can truly love others. If I wasn’t able to decipher what my own guidance was, within me, how would I be able to truly discern and decipher what was truly for me coming from outside sources?

And so I decided to choose from me, for me. Sinking deeper into meditation, journaling and rituals allowing me to connect with the divine essence of me and my spiritual team.

I invite you to think where in your own life you could be falling deeper into trust with yourself, how are you listening within? Where could you place better boundaries to not give in to outside influences?

This is your path. Your life. Your choice. Look within, you carry all you need to heal, to know, to be. You are, in this moment, and will forever be connected to the fountain of light that is all of creation. You are the universe, all you seek is inside you.